media consumption | apr 2025

[darkunicorna]

and so it is april... what a month already. trying to go back to working out more but i fear i am no longer disciplined enough to do what i used to do lol. anyway! without further ado!

edit: whenever i update these mid-month (it is now apr 24), i look at the stuff i've already written abt like HOLY SHIT THAT HAPPENED THIS MONTH???? feels like EONS ago. anyway! updating!

shows / performances / misc

• alvin ailey apr 4 went bc kait invited me and it was honestly sooooo cool and fun! i didn't know abt alvin ailey beforehand, but whenever i would mention it to others they would all be like oh! yes! haha. i loved sacred songs — just so so beautiful — and also treading was so wild! the lighting played such a key role in elevating the performances, ESPECIALLY for treading. i also liked wading in the water! the costumes were gorgeous and so flowy in ways that really enhanced the dancers' movements. ppl's arm movements looked like WATER it was so fun to watch this type of dance considering the rigidity of k-pop dance that i normally consume haha also i loved the parts where dancers' movement together would form a greater picture, like water or something. also loved that key movements were repeated throughout the entire thing. after the show, i took jl and jacob to meet kait... they were so awkward lmao idk why. but overall a great time and i'm glad i went!


• the firstfruit mark omg!! it's not that i had low expectations of mark hahah but i didn't loooove +82 pressin'. i did like 200 and fraktsiya, but 200 in particular took a bit of time to warm up to. but i actually looooove this album so much. there is an interview in which mark mentions that he would listen to a lot of gospel music growing up and IT SHOWS. the gospel influence is HEAVY, imo in a good way. there are A LOT of religious references in his songs and his songwriting in a way that makes it clear that he's thought really deeply about how to get these concepts across in the album. it's really really obvious that a lot of heart and effort went into it, and also the promo leading up to it has been insane??? like i'm ngl this is the biggest i've seen sm go out for a solo artist... mark is their baby fr. when i listen to too much, i think so much abt how loved mark is bc he is so so so so loved... and IT SHOWS w this album and the promo, including his members wearing his shirt and surprising him w a listening party. insane! at first 1999 didn't rly speak to me bc i didn't think the falsetto was executed in a way i liked, but after listening to the album through a few times, i think it does actually work well. my favs are def journey mercies (and hey, this tidbit just makes it better), watching tv (the harmonizations w crush sound heavenly), righteous, and too much. i also quite like flight to NYC! and the intro feels like a rly strong and appropriate intro (thinking of enha and lessera's intro tracks... not all are bad but. haha) but omg when i was listening to it on a walk i was unable to differentiate the outside park sounds in the song from the outside sounds i was actually hearing irl lol. also for mom's interlude — the piano is GORGEOUS. his mom is an amazing player. also she sounds so much like a mom hahahaa thinking abt this bc i recently saw a clip from the 127 hulu doc again and haechan's mom does NOT sound like a mom hahaha. anyway! love this! my enthusiasm for music has returned!

tv

• weak hero class 1: season 1, ep. 8 BOY DO I HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS. i initially started this bc i heard it was gay af and i like jihoon. it was indeed gay af and jihoon was SOOOOOOOOOO freaking good it's INSANE in it BUT... oh my god i did not know what i was signing up for when i started this LOLL it was kind of tough to get through! not bc it wasn't good — it was great! but... BAD THINGS KEPT HAPPENING LOL. i would finish an ep and be like phew that was heavy i need some time to decompress omg the adrenaline spikes this show probably caused in my body due to these ppl constantly almost dying! i have never wanted to dig up every bad word i knew before this show... but fucking yeongbin had me making shit up just to curse him out my GOD! i don't condone violence unless it's against HIM! AND ON THAT NOTE. i didn't know it would be so violent LOL in a way it made me think of when i was watching novocaine; like logically realistically in that situation, this normal ass person would probably NOT k!ll (or in weak hero's case, almost kill) this person, but bc the highlight of this media is the gore and the fighting, these unrealistic things will happen. it took me a while to wrap my head around that LOL i was like WHY ARE YOU BEATING HIM UP IN A CLASSROOM?????? IN FRONT OF EVERYONE INCLUDING THE TEACHER?????? but i get it now lol and indeed the fighting was SUPER cool and i'm so so curious abt how much choi hyunwook and jihoon had to train for this show bc??? they were so good? the fight choreography was also so excellent like all the fights were rly satisfying albeit sickening lol.
  there were TWO moments i think where the logic didn't rly make sense to me re: beating ppl up. 1) when seokdae goes back to gilsu and gilsu is all mad that seokdae is beat up and breaks his arm + goes after sieun and his friends... idgi??? what does it matter to gilsu if he's beat up lol i mean i guess he was mad that seokdae was doing other shit on gilsu's dime?? is that it? bc he was hurt but def still able to do his work vs after gilsu beat him up he def was not able to do his work lmao I DON'T GET THAT PART. like gilsu had no stake to get involved lol. 2) what exactly did sieun's rampage at the end have to do w the national assemblymember guy and why did he "do sieun a favor" by letting him just transfer schools? is it bc sieun technically made the news of what happened to suho more obvious / harder to cover up? OH WAIT or is it the national assemblymember HELPING sieun not get in trouble for his rampage IN EXCHANGE FOR keeping quiet abt suho??? look at me processing in real time...
  ALSO YEONGI.... i loved her and thank god there was a woman on this show LOLOL tho now that she's outie, will there officially be no women in the second season? lol. ANYWAY SO BEOMSEOK... totally can see him crushing on suho and that crush turning toxic once he realizes that suho kind of treats everyone that way and that he's not special. THAT BEING SAID. why would he have not been jealous of sieun more then??? suho and sieun def had a special bond but suddenly it's yeongi who supposedly came between them? lol. kind of emphasizes this tumblr post's point that beomseok never really cared about / saw sieun in the same way that sieun did. even at the start of the last ep, beomseok just leaves sieun bc suho leaves? idk his excuse sounded fake. anyway i have so much trouble understanding irredeemable characters like yeongbin lol like damn you are still not letting it go after sieun almost k!lled you?? get a fucking life! beomseok too to an extent like DAMN truly the consequences of the LETHAL combo of lack of a frontal lobe + huge male egos. also it was so funny how much swearing i heard in this drama vs all the other dramas i watched haha i was like aah this drama is truly for Boys and truly embraces Boy Speak. learned so much abt swearing in korean!
  HMMM this is totally stream of consciousness at this point LOL but i'm sad it was only 8 ep bc i think it could have done w some more fun scenes of them bonding to rly hammer home their connection — suho and sieun especially. i mean i think their connection WAS clear but i would have loved more bc if i think too hard i'm like damn you're jumping to almost k!lling other ppl for each other whoaaaaa i mean i don't have a problem w it from a shipper lens LOL but from a logical storyline perspective... then again as we have previously established this show / story does not necessarily favor logical sequences of events haha. I ALSO WISH WE WOULD HAVE GOTTEN MORE OF SUHO'S BACK STORY. we did get a bit of sieun's (AND POOR BABY SIEUN i'm also like why did he always get hurt as a kid? is it bc he was bullied all the time? or bc he was just prone to getting hurt...??) as well as some of beomseok's re: him being adopted, but we don't know THAT much abt suho. he never even actually confirmed if he rly was training for MMA in the past... but i guess at some point it was obvious LOL.
  ok barely making sense at this point so i should wrap it up soon BUT ONE LAST THING I WANNA TOUCH ON is sieun's transformation throughout the series! i feel like i never really saw him as weak, which is why the title never made sense to me haha he wasn't weak, just reserved and disciplined, and when yeongbin pushes him past his limit, he's fully capable of taking care of himself. i guess how i see it is that he needed suho back then to guide him / rein him in in a way, and then later on w gilsu, he needed suho to rly succeed bc even tho he was smart and capable, he wasn't strong enough on his own. then at the end, when he is able to defeat every person who wronged him and suho, he is able to do it FOR suho / BECAUSE OF suho as well as without suho. he no longer needs him i guess... WHICH BREAKS MY HEART. I FIND IT SO HARD TO LIVE W THIS ENDING like it's really good... BUT IT HURTS ME BC I NEED MORE CLOSURE. there is this rly excellent thread on twitter abt the parallels betw weak hero and demian and i can totally see it all. it esp hits the part abt "becoming one," like sieun now has taken on suho's role... his qualities... in his place TTTTTTTT ngl at first i was wondering wtf these narrative arcs were lol felt very episodic, but bc of these cyclical aspects of the story it rly came together in the end... in a way that fucking HURTS. suho being bullied again at the end but this time he's not going to WAIT until this bully goes too far (at least we don't think he will)! wow. what a show. s2 in like 2 weeks!


• the pitt: season 1, ep. 15 THE PITT!!!!! i love this show so so much... i understand it might not be the BEST show ever - like there are def flaws (read: cringe / cliche) in its execution hahah and some of the acting is slightly off lol BUT!!! wow the characters are so fully fleshed and they really do their best to hit on so many great and important things! i was so surprised when they even managed to fit the MEASLES in in the last few episodes, as well as ppl who are like antivax, anti masking, etc etc and the mass shooting??? DAMN they really managed to tell so much. the show moves fast and switches tones quickly, but that's in part bc that's exactly what being in an er is like... you barely have enough time to even fully process what you're doing throughout the whole day. I LOVE ALL THE LADIES SM i looooved dr collins pretty early on bc she was just so caring... i forget which specific episode i'm thinking of but! i also am so sorry to santos lol i love her now that i understand more of who she is as a person - someone who has been hurt and is just blunt but ultimately cares so much abt the patients and knows so much. i really like her confidence and her determination to doing things a certain way! and LOL loved her and whitaker at the end lmaoooo so funny. i am kinda like. where tf is this abbott / mohan ship coming from lol not opposed!!! hopefully ppl are not shipping it for misogynist reasons or anything! i am on board in a not mainstream kind of way! but i'm basic af so i think melangdon is where my heart is LOL sorry... i just love a broken ruined man x the lady he doesn't expect to pull him back together but is the only one who is there for him in those broken times lol. love talks of rehab and divorce and building a life back up like ugh that's the most likable version of langdon, not the one on the show HAHA and i'm nervous for how he will be in s2... but for now i am loving the characterizations in fic :) 


• weak hero class 2: season 1, ep. 6 I am only four episodes in so far (end of may me: false, I am now 6 eps in), but I am having a good time!! I think this season is doing a pretty good job of investing us into new characters... like juntae you are my BABY! and my interest in gotak is growing due to his proficiency w martial arts haha that kick at our first meeting w him... i am looking! i also thought he was chill and cool and clearly rejected groupthink, but somehow he still fell for hyoman's stupid trap lolol maybe he's not supposed to be the sharpest tool in the shed ig. he's a cutie tho! baku is still growing on me, which is surprising bc i liked him a lot in that one fic i read that was like a "what if suho was a part of the union" fic in a way... but ig it's bc he's introduced so late in comparison to the other characters. i also don't know how i feel about rowoon/ryeoun ? did he change is romanization lolll this is my first time seeing him act so! i also... i am so sorry but i am a baek nara stan (as of like, this show lol) bc i think he's taken on cool and interesting roles (including a drag queen apparently?) and also that fight scene against hyoman and his crew was just really cool. sieun is PERFECT as per usual and i'm glad they still managed to incorporate suho somehow through sieun's texts to him bc it feels weird to move on that quickly esp with how much suho shaped sieun and the first season. this season started with a catcher in the rye quote... wonder what that relevance will be, esp considering the significance of the opening quote last season. 
  last season, the director/writers were unafraid to really diverge and create their own story for the show, and i wonder how much that will happen here, esp since these characters and these parts of the story tie much more closely to the webtoon story... from what i see so far, it has fallen into the typical conundrum of like, webtoon fans being unsatisfied w changed and then drama fans being unsatisfied lol truly can't please anyone. BUT i will have to watch more myself to find out! on my list next now that i've finished the pitt!


• when i fly towards you: season 1, ep. 7 thought i already wrote about this one, but apparently not LMAO i started this because i became interested in zhang miaoyi after watching her in the first frost! i realized p quickly that this is adapted from a webnovel written by the same author behind hidden love and first frost as well hahah she def has certain things she likes, including childhood friends to lovers + ppl having obsessive crushes. at least those crushes are cute in the fictional setting + the person being crushed on finds it cute lolol i also think zhou yiran is a cutie so i was interested in this! i stopped bc... i had to finish the pitt and weak hero lmaooo but i'll return to this soon enough. i'm curious if this show will exit the high school phase. i really disliked the middle school / high school era of hidden love and loved first frost partially because it focused on the time after high school haha so i'm hoping it will and i'm hoping it will do so soon. there are some moments where there are really awkward misunderstandings that hurt me lol i almost gave up on the first episode bc of the zhang lurang / gu ran mix up, and in the latest episodes, gu ran thinks jiang jia has some like life threatening illness or something bc of some overheard convo between jiang jia and his dad, so i am cringingggggg lol anyway! all i can say is let's see!

webtoons / manga / manhwa / manhua

• tears on a withered flower: korean, ongoing, ch. 46 still reading!


• trashy situation: korean, ongoing, ch. 37 still reading!


• scent and sensibility: korean, ongoing, ch. 45 (?) was craving an abo story lmaooo so i went with this one... I THOUGHT IT WAS DONE... ugh lol still it was super enjoyable! the art was so cute, esp the chibi art hehehehe and ngl i kinda liked the full lips look? i like that both dobin and taeoh are dominant, so they are (relatively) unaffected by each other and don't really act 100% like omegas and/or alphas do. taeoh is down BAAAAADDD which i LOVE obvi hahaha and i thought the story was getting SO interesting w taeoh finally finding out dobin was his pheremone therapist + taeoh starting to release flirting pheromones around dobin that make it so he's unable to control himself WHICH HE DOESN'T WANT bc he thinks taeoh hates clingy omegas but what he doesn't know is that taeoh doesn't mind if it's HIMMM but then i got to the latest update >:( this is why i don't like reading ongoing works LOLOL alas! taeoh's bro is also really cool and attractive and i am intrigued to learn more about him, as well!


• itsuka, kazoku ni naru made: japanese, complete, ch. 6.5 aaaand i was craving a story w kids lol. looooove haruomi he's sooooooo cuuuuuuute waaaaaaah TT TT the story was super sweet and cute, tho def suffers from the conflict only lasting like a few panels bc it's only one vol... with hitsuji no kawa wo kita kemono (monster in sheep's clothing), you can tell the story just instantly opens up and becomes so much deeper once it got the green light for the second volume... ANYWAY. this story hit the spot just right and omg icb some ppl were left without an update after takaomi stuck in a freezer for almost a full year before the next update lolol. the art is really cute and aaahhh i really felt for takaomi during that bit where he reflects on his wife passing away and that holding him back from opening himself up again in case that person disappears again :((((((( i rather liked how persistent nomura was just because i think that's what takaomi needed? otherwise i think he would have remained on his own bc it was comfortable. tho i do think being jealous of takaomi's dead wife was a little out of line hahaha but overall such a joy!


• udagawachou de mattete yo: japanese, complete, ch. 6.5 okay i looooooved this and i think it managed to accomplish a lot in just six chapters actually... loved it! love the gradual realization and acceptance and yashiro goes that he actually likes momose calling him cute. like how momose is a little weirded out at first, but then kinda confidently embraces his attraction (or at least seemingly does in yashiro's eyes), and love how the first time is actually not good bc they don't know what they're doing but they figure it out!!!! love how many outfits yashiro gets to try on!!! love the size difference! this author is quite good at making every little moment feel natural but also say so much abt the characters — like the music cd and the fact that yashiro took the initiative to try to listen to it just bc he was trying to understand momose better. just overall v sweet and actually p realistic (or at least not as sparkly as many shoujo manga are haha) and reminded me of my beautiful man, tho momose is less of a fucking weirdo LOLLLL.


• hitsuji no kawa wo kita kemono (monster in sheep's clothing): japanese, ongoing, ch. 13 OH GOD. I LOVE THIS. I LOVE THEM. ooooh they are so broken omg tatsumi listening to those regulars at the bar talk abt DEPENDENCE vs RELATIONSHIP omg DEF not the author trying to say something abt their relationship DEF not... and daichi looking up why people give hickeys and finding out it's bc of POSSESSIVENESS and/or OBSESSIVENESS... sure tatsumi says almost nothing affectionate but his actions speak SO DAMN LOUD and he is TERRIFIED of daichi leaving him, not realizing that daichi is EQUALLY TERRIFIED tho for slightly more convoluted reasons (bc he thinks his family will abandon him once they learn he is dating tatsumi and then tatsumi will feel guilty and leave him LOL) and also like. all this bad stuff tatsumi is getting involved in bc of that orphanage friend... IDK IF HE REALIZES DAICHI DOESN'T CARE IF HE GETS INVOLVED IN BAD STUFF OR NOT AS LONG AS HE'S OKAY... anyway they are so sweet and wholesome and trying so so hard to be better people because of each other to be loved is to be changed etc etc etc WAAAAAAHHH tatsumi just keeps changing to try to become the person he thinks daichi would love... the person he thinks daichi deserves / would be proud of........ WOW. there were really fascinating little inklings at deeper considerations of their relationship, like the bit about dependence, that we simply would not have gotten to explore if it had truly ended w the first volume, so thank god there is more even tho these updates come slow af oh and also i love how supportive ppl seem to be of their relationship (like the parole officer and the nurses in the hospital) and how the bacchus bar doesn't discriminate in hiring based on criminal background and gives ppl a second change at life in that way! i felt A LOT of feelings reading this (no crying bc antidepressants but my face got hot) so i hope... things don't go too far downhill...


• toumei na ai no utsuwa: japanese, complete, ch. 6.5 LOOOOOOOVED THIS. i had started it a while ago but got frustrated bc i thought the pages were cut off on the site i was reading... turns out i was just zoomed tf in LOL. i mean also, in the first chapter the characters' relationship is soooo awkward LOLL but it grows so much just bc shiro grows to see how beautiful miki is as a person — like, the ways he embodies all the aspects of humanity that shiro loves. shiro doesn't need to go outside and observe people anymore because he has miki to observe!!!!! wow this author truly packed so much into six chapters i felt A LOT (once again no crying bc antidepressants but i felt like i rly could). in the author's note when the author talks abt how they were going through grief bc their cat just passed away, and they thought how lucky miki and shiro were that shiro was able to open his eyes again...... and omg the explanation for the kanji in miki's name... 美記 as in "one with whom to share the chronicle of a beautiful life" AAHHHHH SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT IF I DIEDDDDDD i love explanations about little details like this........ wow they really love each other so deeply i hope they are happy forever!!!!


• yes, no, or maybe?: japanese, ongoing, end of vol. 2 LOOOOOVED THIS SOOO MUUUUUCH omg i love how kei has like two different personalities like work persona and home persona haha tbh i don't think it's a big deal that he does? and isn't it natural that everyone does to some extent? (which he kind of touches on later when it comes to that sports guy, minigawa, when he realizes he has a life that kei knows nothing about as well). i also didn't think he was actually that rude or abrasive LMAO maybe it's bc i live in america... but he clearly had a good heart and a strong conscience, but just had a blunt way of phrasing things. love how tsuzuki was able to see all of that, maybe partially because he got to know both sides separately and got to grow to like them separately. i love the little aliens... and how the little alien has a friend now... CRY. i wanna read more so badly! i was also intrigued by the hint that perhaps kei's mom also has a rough personality, but she has kei's father to rely on... CAN RELATE bc my mom is that way too lmfaooo and i like how the stress of the evening anchor position pushed kei to realize he didn't have anyone to rely on like that who he could be his full self to and reveal his true worries to... everyone needs that kind of person! and it helped kei finally admit that he really needed and liked tsuzuki! where i left off, they're going through a jealous arc rn haha i wanna read the light novels next since the next manga volume doesn't come out until nov!


• semantic error: korean, complete, ch. 67 LOOOOVE but i'm reading this so freaking slowly lol reading in spurts... read up to like 18 or something a few months back, and now i've read up to like 60 or something but i took another break, probably bc i was writing something and had a deadline i was trying to meet as per usual, and now i struggle to pick it back up again. but anyway sangwoo is definitely autistic... my autistic king... and i am realizing (i think i already knew but now i am more actively seeking) stories where there's some guy who is just like rly obsessive and generally just down extremely bad for someone who is kinda oblivious lolol the number of times sangwoo was like "i'll just find some other guy to satisfy my sexual urges w" and jaeyoung is like UGHHH lol also the way jaeyoung acted so crazy confronting jihye about her crush on sangwoo was also hilarious lmaooo her being like "icb ppl think this guy is chill???" and him being like "i can't believe i acted like that to someone who was basically in elementary school when i was in high school??? i like both the drama and the webtoon adaptations so far and i think both offer different things :) waiting for sangwoo to realize... WAITING... WHAT WILL IT TAKE FOR HIM TO REALIZE... (end of may me: can you believe it. i still haven't finished)

also tried to read payback and daytime star... will get around to finishing them eventually lol


movies

canceled my a-list and am v happy that i am now going to a bunch of random events at small indie theatres all the time! started an alamo season past and tbh i was like holy shit this theatre is ran through LMAO so we'll see how long this lasts lol but i do think there are a few movies coming up that i'm excited abt, so i might as well just keep it for now! anyway, as always, my reviews are here.


books

i usually log my books on literal! but here are some midway thoughts for books i haven't / won't finish:

• doppleganger by naomi klein might drop this bc she went on this weird tangent abt how ppl shouldn't be called horrible awful things for saying one thing wrong etc which is technically true but still felt slightly like an excuse? i felt uncomfortable hearing it from a white person who didn't acknowledge the possible hurt ppl might be going through bc of "one little incident" (i am super paraphrasing but way too lazy to actually go back and look at what she said rn lol i'll do it later)


• nothing serious by emily j. smith i finished this and logged that i finished it on literal, but unfortunately i just didn't write a review bc of who i am as a person lol BUT. overall i enjoyed this! i thought there were some bits abt how women are treated in comparison to men that still made me jump up and go YES EXACTLY! the one thing i couldn't really get past was, after edie propositioned peter and realized she didn't want him anymore / his charm had kind of worn off, i was surprised by how much she still waffled back and forth abt whether or not he was innocent / whether or not he deserved her sympathy. i guess perhaps this back and forth behavior could have been motivated by how long she knew peter, but that wasn't really clarified in the book, and it just made me double take to have her be like "peter is so egotistical" and then still be more interested in helping him on the witness stand than leah. still, an interesting read that def kept me entertained on quite a few long bus rides now that i'm commuting again!


• human acts by han kang i've been reading this veeeeery slowly, which i think is the point / the way this book is supposed to be consumed haha i find if i listen to too many chapters at once, i start getting desensitized to what i'm listening to (also yes i am consuming on audiobook, which is probs not the best decision bc i want to see the way the words are laid out on the page... and also bc it def means i'm not taking in all the words i should be rn). so far i enjoyed the prisoner chapter and eunsook's chapter the most. i thought the prisoner's chapter was the most biting, as he's essentially criticizing this academic who is interviewing him for viewing the violent acts as research as opposed to impacting these real lives. we also got the title drop in this chapter. i thought both of those chapters were the most political, as well, since eunsook's directly mentions censorship. dongho's story is also a really powerful way to set up the story in the very beginning, particularly since how he felt is likely how many people felt — guilty for not doing enough, but also what could they have possibly done in that situation to not end up dead — or worse, as the prisoner's story tells us. i liked the way eunsook's efforts to forget the slaps mirror the efforts to forget the horrors these citizens have experienced; felt like a phantom pain long after the scars have faded, and forever a fixture in the mind they will be unable to forget. it is still pessimistic, as i am learning is han kang's way, but i think because this time, the violence she is describing is tied to real historical events, it feels more important and more necessary than the violence she described in the vegetarian, which felt more superfluous / more of a conscious choice to show a woman descend into misery. i'm over halfway through, so i'm sure i'll finish by this weekend or something. (end of may me: i finished this!)


• the pucking wrong number + the pucking wrong guy by c.r. jane i really liked the premise of the pucking wrong number, and i got decently far in it i think? but i felt like monroe was given like the most tragic backstory ever to make her seem more down to earth lol and she has like so many random gross men hitting on her but like... hello girl do you have any lady friends... travel in packs! call each other when in need! i did like bill? i think his name was? the guy who first helped her when she first moved to dallas, and the fact that he still helps her even after she's settled down a bit more :') lincoln was fine lol i did like how protective he was of monroe, but i also feel like a lot of his attraction was just based on how she looked. not my fav lol i need something like bet me by jennifer crusie where they start off thinking kind of negatively of each other but then grow interested in each other's personality until they CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER... maybe i just need to read another jennifer crusie book lmfaooo. anyway i don't like blondes haha and i really didn't find it believable that he would shirk his job as a hockey player just for some girl. idk what author knows about professional athletes but i think very very very very few of them, esp those who are ranked v high, would be quite so blase about brushing off his job.
  IN THE SAME VEIN, i felt the same way abt ari in the pucking wrong guy. CHANGING YOUR WHOLE ASS TEAM FOR A GIRL???? and esp a team full of ppl you don't even LIKE... never lol absolutely never heard of a professional athlete who would do that. blake again seemed like someone who was just given the most tragic backstory ever, but she felt less relatable than monroe. also this author clearly has a thing for green eyes lol and these guys just sound like the same personality... cocky as hellllll. i thought ari would be funnier bc of his little bits in the pucking wrong number, but alas i was wrong! so i stopped reading this one pretty early on as opposed to the pucking wrong number.


• ruthless creatures by j.t. geissinger hmmm i actually really liked this at first, in part because i really loved sloane and nat's dynamic, where they are rly there for each other but also know how to joke around in a really funny way. i also thought nat's despair was really believable, and i was curious about what happened with david. i also thought kage was mysterious enough to be interesting, so i thought there might be more of a push-and-pull there, esp since he starts off very cold toward nat. however, he comes back and says he's all in for nat, and though i DO like that he is very honest about what he feels and what he wants, and though i thought that was cute, they then basically just have sex lol i have once again lost interest the second a book becomes too sex-focused sigh. i do think there are more twists and plot points to uncover, esp re: david, but ugh thinking about having to slog through boring ass sex scenes makes me tired. i even thought they had good / hot chemistry until they actually got together